When are you going to be you?

So, how does my blog look?? I worked hard on it! and i like how it turned out. Still might make a few changes later. All the layout stuff is confusing! lol
We have been having a super fun week! Got to go to NC and spend 2 nights(last week) with my cousins!!! We were so happy to see them because we hadn't seen  them since last June. My brothers, sister and I have always been close to our cousins...it doesn't matter how long it's been since we've seen each other or talked we can always pick right back up where we left off. Wish we didn't live 4 hours from each other :( We traveled there because our great, great aunt JoAnn had a mild heart attack and was in the hospital. Thank the Lord she is doing better and was discharged Friday. My lil cousin Taylor aka Fluffy as my daddy calls her ;) came home with us. She has been here since Friday night. It has been very fun to have her with us.

 Tuesday nights=G.L.A.M. :)) We finished up Purity and started the next lesson: "1-3-9 The Perfect Combination." Not really sure what the 1-3-9 stuff means (?) lol. I wanted to write about something that it seems like today has been emphasised all day for me! Earlier today my mom asked my sister, "When are you going to be Manda?" and we watched a movie about being who you are not who your parents or the world tells you to be. And then we learned about being yourself at G.L.A.M.. I remember that saying that went around facebook forever (not sure where it came from though)...it was, "me get like you? no, you get like me." But the thing is no one should be "getting" like anyone else but their ownself! I remember in school when the teacher would say if everyone looked the same, the world would be such a boring place. I agree with that. It should be harder to be someone your not than it is to be yourself. Sadly, with the way it is today it is easier to be what your not than to be "you."

It is so easy to get caught up with what everyone else is doing, saying, or wearing. I think most people act in ways so others will accept them because deep down they have never truly accepted who they are. The world constantly screams that all girls need to be a size 2 to be beautiful and it yells that if we want to be accepted we must do what's "in" and if you are single, you are nothing. But none of that is true...

When you start being you, it won't matter what others might say. You are worth more than what you have or don't have, you are more! Don't let people degrade you when you stand out...that's called boldness,doing right with confidence and not caring what others think . You can't please everybody so you might as well please yourself and the Lord!

I love that new Nick movie called Rags...Charlie the main character tells Katie, "just be you." Just be you. Figure out who you are and do that not what the magazine says but what your heart says.

I am one of those people who have pretty much always stood out and never really fit in. It used to bother me a lot but I've realized i'm different and I am okay with that. God didn't make me (or you) to fit in. We are made as an original. You are an original and I am too. There will never be another Megan Rachelle Roberts. That makes me feel special knowing God made me one of a kind and it makes me smile knowing He is so mighty and powerful that he designs us ALL differently.
The Bible says, "I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well."~Psalm 139:14 He made you the way you are!

We all have things we dislike about ourselves. I believe the Bible but sometimes when I look in the mirror i think "why did he make me this way?" I have horrible vision, messed up teeth (TY Lord for letting me get braces to correct that), I am self conscience about the way i talk and laugh (because certain ppl in my family constantly make fun of it but laughs are supposed to be funny? right!?)I don't like my eyebrows and I've always thought my hair color is dull and boring.I wish I was a little taller and weighed 20 pounds less than I do. About the only thing I actually like about myself is my eyes and my long eyelashes. I am just being honest...but when I think about those things He reminds me I am perfect in his eyes. God doesn't judge us because we have a bad hair day and he never makes fun of us when we walk around all day with food stuck in our teeth (lol) he loves us no matter what! Why do we try so hard to please everyone else when we should be giving our all to please HIM. He loves you and me no matter what! We are all beautiful in his sight :) I love that song Breakin' Ground sings...When I was at my worst, God was at his best. We are nothing yet he gave it all so we could be saved. Others might not think you are worth anything but Jesus sure does! He cares about you and He'll never stop caring.

I sometimes let the outside define me when the heart should be what defines me. I have Jesus in my heart and he is not something a person can hide from the world...he always finds a way to come out :) you can't hide someone as big as God in your heart! He will pour out and shine on the outside too. Let Jesus define you. Keep your eyes on the Savior and the way you look on the outside won't be as important.

Be "you"nique!!! Be who God made you to be. You will never be happy until you be the you he designed you to be. When are you going to be (place your name here)? :)
ps. please excuse any mis-spelled words...I am to sleepy to correct mistakes lol

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hey yall, i am working on my layout and everything on my blog so it may look a little funny. I just worked for like an hour on changing it up and then i hit some button and everything I had done disappeared and now it is boring fonts and colors :(( hopefully within the next few days I will have it fixed

Happy Father's Day to my awesome daddy :))

I don't have much time to write but just wanted to write about my wonderful daddy for a few minutes! I am so blessed to have a saved father who loves the Lord!!! I am so grateful to the Lord for giving me a goodly heritage. I was thinking the other day that parents either 1. love or 2. leave...i am thankful mine never left but have always loved!

I love this picture! This is true for me!! My daddy has always

taught me well and treated me right  :)

The Lord has worked so much in my daddy's heart over the past year that it is so amazing! I can't wait to see what else the Lord is going to do. just a few years ago my daddy wasn't even really going to church. Just like what many people do atleast once in their life he put his eyes on people and off the Lord and he got hurt. I remember (for about a year i went to church by myself...every sunday and wednesday I would call someone from church and get a ride) all the times I prayed to see my daddy be faithful to church again and be on fire for the Lord and guess what!? God answered those prayers <3 He answered them better than I asked!!! God led my family to Cannon Mountain Baptist Church and he worked on my daddy and now things are soo different!!! I sometimes ponder all God has done and it is so overwhelming! I remember all the times i wanted to hear my daddy say amen during church and all the times I wanted to see him praise God and now I get to see that! God is soo wonderful! Daddy is now a sunday school teacher at church, assistant song leader and this coming up saturday he is being ordained to be a deacon at our church. So excited to see the Lord using my daddy!

                               me and my daddy and picture to the right is manda (my sis) and daddy

Looking back I can always say my daddy has always been a good dad to us. He isn't perfect but who is? I wouldn't trade him for anyone and I am happy to call him my Dad! He gets up everyday during the week before it is even light outside and goes to work to take care of his family! He and my mom have taught us that Jesus is the most important thing in life. I am grateful my parents taught us that because i know most kids parents don't. I'll never forget last year after we (my borthers, sis and I) got home from youth camp sitting around the table talking about what had happened that week...Daddy told us that what we do for the Lord is the only thing that will last and he is all that matters! So thankful I have a father who isn't pressuring me to become a doctor or lawyer so I can be rich but i have a Godly father who is teaching me that serving God is the best job there is. Money and popularity don't matter but souls and the Savior do! thank you Lord for what you have blessed me with :)))

Well since I last wrote I got my hair done so now i am blonde :)) and i love it! feels more "mee" and I am now an assistant in a sunday school class at my church. Today was my first time in the class, it is k5-2nd grade. I enjoyed it today! maybe one day soon I'll be able to teach sometimes...have to get over some fear though lol i don't like talking in front of people even if they are like 7 ;) :)

My SURPRISE 20th birthday party @ G.L.A.M. and ScRiPturE journals :))

I had a birthday Sunday...so now I am a 20 year old. Feels very weird lol. I had a great day. Got to be at my favorite place...CHURCH! Got a new Vera bradley backpack from my parents and of course birthday cake :) I am still trying to get used to the braces. They are still hurting me everyday. Hopefully soon I will get used to them and it won't be as painful lol.

The day i got my braces on...rough day lol

Since it was pouring rain tonight manda and I left the house earlier than normal for G.L.A.M. because I hate driving in the rain (my bug is low to the ground and I spin out alot lol) So we got to the fellowship building at church (where we have G.L.A.M.) early and I get inside and see Happy birthday stuff and I was like "huh!?" I thought it was one of the other girls birthdays or something...and then I got told it was for me and I was still like "Huh!?" lol Then I found out my sweet moma had came earlier this morning and set everything up. When i found that out I wanted to cry!!! She got my friend Mrs. Brandie to make cupcakes and she had her make me a big cupcake :)) and I got flowers for the first time in my life!! I was very excited about that! Moma had a card set out (she wasn't there when i got there. Her and daddy came later) and all the girls signed it. Some of the girls even gave me lil gifts :) I have always wanted a suprise party!! It meant soo much to me that my mom did all that for me. I was very suprised and happy and I will never forget it!! After we ate we started working on our craft.

Flowers from my parents :)) i loved the cupcake balloon too!

my moma made some food and sent it with me...i thought we were just gonna

be having a lil snack haha:) I brought food to my own suprise party lol  

I wish someone would have told me I was going to a party...

i woulda fixed my hair and put on some nicer clothes lol ;))

Some of the G.L.A.M. girls :) love them all!!!

my big cupcake...sooo good!!

more cupcakes :))

After my party we began working on "scripture journals" (aka smashbook. we liked calling it scripture journal alot better than smashbook lol)  These things are a lot of fun and are very easy to do. I can't wait to fill mine up! If you are wanting to start your own just pick up a composition notebook and some fun paper and start writing verses in it. don't forget StIcKeRs <3 Here are some pictures.

here is Michaela's journal...so pretty!

me workin' hard ;)

my sis's journal :)

Cassidy's journal :)

Manda's "waiting on her prince" page :)

I haven't done my outside cover yet but here is my first page...

i wrote my fav verses (Isaiah 55:8,9) after i took this picture.

Some of the verses I wrote out earlier today and of course i can't leave out Hello Kitty;)

manda, kelsey and michaeala working on their journals!

my crazy sister ;) holding a princess for her prince page :)

Gwinn working on her journal!

these are some of the verses I did earlier today...this one is 1 John 4:7,8

Col 3:8,9,12,13  put off the bad, put on the good!

Psalm 145:8,9

one of my favorites about waiting, Psalm 27:14 the Lord gave me this verse right

after I got saved and i've held onto it ever since :)

Psalm 18:30 one of my faves! 

Congrats class of 2012!

Today we went to watch my brothers girlfriend, Bam graduate high school. She graduated with Honors! and she was ranked #7 out of her whole class!! She is wayy to smart for my brother...JK ;)
 Congrats to ALL graduates of class of 2012!!! Enjoy this time!!

Me Reminiscing: I can not believe it has been 2 years since I graduated...time sure flies! The day I graduated (June 12, 2010)...after my party we went home and I went to my room and shut the door and cried my eyes out...and I don't even know why lol. I felt sad but happy and scared yet excited. Knowing it was over was hard but knowing I made it sure made me feel special. You wait your whole life to graduate so you can "have a life" and "make your own choices" and then after you gradaute you would do anything to go back and do it all over again lol Life is funny like that; you spend so much time waiting on something to happen and then once it happens you realize you missed out on living because you were so caught up with the waiting part, wanting it to be over. I remember my first day of high school when they told us "this will be over before you know it," "it will be over in the snap of your fingers." I thought to myself, "man i wish it'd hurry up" lol and in a snap of the fingers it WAS over...and now it has been 2 years. okay i am done reminiscing lol...

Here are a couple of pictures of Bam on her big day:

This is her and Josh (my brother)

Here is my family with Bam :)

^"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:11-13 KJV

Life is really about seeking and finding the Lord. because life without HIM is no life at all! HE is the way the truth and the life  (John14:6) <3 Don't live to be famous, to have the most degrees, to be rich, or to have the most friends...Live your life for God. What we do for HIM is the only thing that will last.

on another note, today is my LAST day of being a teenager :(( but i am excited about my birthday tomorrow :) God has been so good to me and has given my (almost) 20 wonderful years of life :))))

Birthday Boy~~Caleb James

Today is my "little" brother Caleb's birthday! He is now 17 years old!! He is my one of my little brothers but by no means is he little...he is 6'3! and still growing...Since it is his birthday today I wanted to make this blog entry about him.

Seventeen years ago on June 7, 1995 at 7:00am I got my second little brother. I don't really remember that day since I was only 3 (was about to turn 4 though in 3 days.) It is funny how things change and how fast everyone grows up. With Josh, who is 1 year, 1 month and 1 day younger than me I feel like we grew up about the same time but with Caleb it is like he grew (and still is) over night. I wonder where that little brown haired, bright blue eyed boy has gone.

*this is a pic from a few weeks ago @ Macaroni Grill...he wouldn't let me take any of him today :(

Some Things I KNOW about Caleb

• First of all he has the awesomest older sister... ME ;))
• He LOVES baseball!He has such a heart for this sport. He is #21 on the Liberty Red Devils baseball team.
• He is pitching almost 90 miles an hour now! i am sure he will be pitching even faster when baseball seasons comes around next spring
• He is an amazing pitcher
• His nickname is C-Rob...Daddy gave him that nickname years ago
• COD (Call of Duty) is his weakness ;)
• I believe one day he will turn into a taco because he loves Taco Bell wayyy too much lol
• Basketball is also his sport! he is great @ free throws and dribbling.
• He HATES school...but who doesn't?? lol
• He has the prettiest eyes...light blue like the color of water
• He can pick me or manda up soo easily (he does this alot and it's pretty annoying but it always makes us laugh!)
• He is super shy but loud when he's angry ;}
• He comes up with the most retarded sayings but they always stick and we go around saying them for months lol. the one we are all saying right now makes me LOL so hard!!
• He used to be very hyper so Daddy made him get his room painted a "calming" color LOL it is dark green and I don't think Caleb even likes green that much lol
• His favorite verses are Proverbs 3:5,6 :)
• He looks up to Josh (always has) but compares himself to him...but both are awesome at everything they do
• We have been told Daddy acted just like Caleb when he was young...idk for sure if this is true though lol
• The boy is a garbage disposer!!! he can eat and eat and then 30 minutes later be starving again!
• When manda was a baby she called him  "tub" or "dob"...don't ask me how that sounds like "caleb" because i have no clue LOL
• He is currently taking the electricity course at the career center so who knows one day he might be and electrician.
• When he was little he had his own language and no one knew what he was saying...i think he thought he was speaking spanish ;) it was cute lol
• He has wonderful parents who do anything they can for their children <3
• Lastly, he is my littlest brother and I love him and thank God for him!

                                                   *Me and my "little" giant brother

I pray for my little brother everyday that God will use him and that Caleb will become what God wants him to be. I pray God will give him something real and that He will be on fire for the Lord. Last week we had Bro Zeb Mcdaris and his family with us at church. He preached sunday and monday night. He said something that I have been thinking about...He said it is easy to pick a career or what to go to college for but no one wants to ask God what he wants them to be. It is easy to choose something to do but is it what God wants you to be?...I have been asking God what he wants me to be. I want and long and desire to be what he wants and has made me to be!! I pray for Caleb, Josh and manda that they will become what God wants them to be too and not just what they want to be. I love my little brother more than he knows. We all fight alot (just being honest lol) but I wouldn't trade my family for anything! God chose me to be their big sister and that scares me sometimes because I know I HAVE to be the example. I pray all the time that I will do right so I don't lead them astray.  Moma and daddy took him to lunch earlier today and then he had a baseball game tonight. We all got to eat birthday cake! Happy Birthday (Kiki-ina!) Caleb :)))

Tonight we got to eat RED VELVET cake!!! Best part of birthdays is the cake lol <3   also i got braces put on today...i am in a lot of pain right now so please pray for me. Y'all have a good friday tomorrow!!

God is still God

hey yall! Hope everyone had a great monday. This morning my mom and I spent some time at the hospital with some very special people from church. My preachers dad had open heart surgery early this morning. Please keep him in your prayers as he recovers...his name is Gary. Thank the Lord he came through!!  God is good and he always answers his children's cries! I am glad we can pray for each other and that God hears. Then tonight I got to see my lil bro Caleb hit his FIRST out of the park home run!! i was very happy for him. He's been waiting for it to happen for a long time. :) Last thursday I got 8 SpAcErS put in my mouth...i thought it would be no big deal but I was SOO wrong :/ I have not been able to bite down on either side of my mouth since friday. I've been having to chew with my front teeth...It makes me feel like a chipmunk! LOL I am getting braces on thurday the 7th. I hope and pray it won't be too painful! My poor mouth has been through it over the past few weeks!! Please say a lil prayer for me that it won't hurt bad:)
Today at the hospital made me thankful that my family wasn't the one waiting while my daddy was having surgery. It could be later but I am thankful today it wasn't! It also made me think of the last time we sat in a waiting room on Feb 24, 2010 and the doctor told us nothing more could be done for my great Grandma. We were in NC where my mom's side of the family live. That was one of the saddest days of my life. She was such a fighter so we all believed she would pull through. She had been admitted many other times but she had always came home...that time she didn't. It is funny how one person can hold a family together...I always think of her as the "glue", she held her family together! But now that she is gone, the glue is gone too...The world is truly a different place without her here!

Right after she died I went straight to the bathroom because I did not want anyone to see my cry (i don't like to cry in front of people!! especially my family) While trying to regain control a nurse asked me if I was alright and I told her my Grandma had just died...then this total stranger gave me a hug. I don't know who that lady was but I have never forgot her compassion. It meant a lot to me! I know it was just a hug but it means so much to know someone cares at times like those! I am glad when we are falling apart there are still some people who care enough to help hold us together(even if it's a stranger!). My family had just went through a death just 2 months earlier. My "Gramme" (my daddy's mom) died very unexpectedly on Dec 16, 2009 just a few days before CHRISTmas. That was so hard because I had never lost anyone! We didn't get to see her much because my dad's side of the family lives in Oregon. But I am thankful for the memories we did get to make over the years when her and my Pops would come stay with us <3 I miss my Gramme and my grandma a lot! So we went through 2 deaths during my senior year...that was rough but I am glad God is still God no matter what!!! I don't know WHAT tomorrow holds but I am glad i do know WHO holds tomorrow!   

Sometimes I feel like what i write is soo random lol but this is what i felt like i needed to say. 
This will probably be a pretty exciting week for us!! My sister has a band concert tomorrow night (she plays trumpet...just like i did!)  then Wednesday we have ChUrCh! Then thursday it is my lil bro Caleb's 17th birthday!!! and i am getting braces that day too and my brother, Josh is off work so we will get to see him! Then on Saturday my brother's GF Bam is graduating high school! then Sunday the best day of all...is my BIRTHDAY :))) I will be turning the BIG 2-0! I am a little depressed to leave my teen years but I am kinda ready to be a lil older lol.