remember even roses have thorns*

well, i've made it through 2 weeks of school. all I can say is Wow! There is a lot more to becoming a dental assistant than you would think. lol. I have learned so much i feel like my brain may explode! We have already had 2 tests. We have 2 or three coming up this week. i went and picked up my uniforms yesterday. It is all exciting! i am in a class with 21 other students. We stay in the same room all day everyday (except for lab or clinical, both are right next door.) We have 2 teachers that teach us everything. It is a little confusing trying to figure out which class is going on. Ms. Shannon, one of my teachers said that if you are not a compassionate person than this field is Not for you. I realized something the other day when she said that....that this (becoming a dental assistant) is just training area for what God is really going to do with my life. Just about everyday I am reminded that this isn't the end but the beginning. Through school and other circumstances in my life he is making me into what I need to become for the work he has for me to do later.

           -I am the door: by me if any man enter in, he shall be saved, and shall go in and out, and find pasture. ~John 10:9

Preacher Shem preached about Jesus being the door this morning at church. I sure needed to hear it!
 He said God opens doors and shuts doors. It doesn't matter how bad you want to go through a closed door, it will not happen because he has it closed. God closes some doors to protect us from something behind that closed door. He has opened doors for me over the past few months and today he reminded me that the doors that are still open I am supposed to continue through that door. It might feel like I am going nowhere and nothing is happening. I might be the one working in the background that noone notices or the "teacher" that never gets an opportunity to say anything. i might feel like it's not worth it and and I should just stop helping but he has that door open because it's where he wants me. Just because you do right doesn't mean everything will be a bed of roses...remember even roses have thorns. It is so easy to look at how others act and treat people, and it's so easy to get my eyes on others who are "rewarded" for their {Lack} of faithfulness but i learned God opens certain doors for me and certain doors for someone else. It's not my business to look at what someone else is doing...or what they are not doing. If I see it...God most definately sees it too! i shouldn't try to get someone to change (and having a bad attitude about it, isn't going to change the person either)...they never will unless God intervenes. Lately He constantly has to remind me that "he is really all that matters." The door he opens is the one that matters, don't dwell on the ones he shuts or never opens (he really does know best.) Walk through the open door and that will lead you where to go next. It will lead you to the next open door. Alot of people think God shows the big picture all at once but he only shows a little pixel at a time. We won't see it all until the end. That is why we must have faith :)

I heard a quote friday: the 2 most important days in your life:

• The day your are born
• and the day you realize why?

I agree partially with this saying because, truly the day you get saved is the most important day of your life not your birthday! and the day you realize why he saved you (what he has called you to do) is the next most important day. I know God has more for me and I can't wait to see what it is! When we realize "why" we will all have to personally decide whether to walk through that door or not to. I told the Lord this morning i wanted my life to be the one He has picked out. A few weeks ago we went to a youth meeting and I got a burden in my heart for something i had never had before. Not totally sure if it is what He wants or if it was just me dreaming big. I'm not going to say what it is but if you are reading this please pray God will make a way if it is his will and show me 110% that it truly is what he wants! I feel like it is but I know i can't trust my feelings. Everyday since that night I think about what he did in my heart. It isn't anything that will happen anytime soon...but years from now. when my teacher said that dental assistants must have compassion i realized God is getting me ready for this service. I'm not just going to school to become a dental assistant, i'm going to school to learn to love people. I have a long, long, long way to go with showing love to others but God is working in my heart! Agape is the love God gives us...agape love is the highest kind of love. it is unconditional. I want to have agape love!

I know...scattered like always lol...hope everyone has a great Labor day tomorrow! :)