Dear Future Husband

Dear future husband, 

I am the one God made just for you...when I was fearfully and wonderfully made God had you on his mind. I was born on a June summer night to young but very in love parents. They kept me safe, taught me right and told me about Jesus. They showed me how a God orchestrated marriage should work. My daddy's genuine love for my mom over the years showed me how a man ought to treat his wife. He respects her. She respects him. They work as a team and have each other's back. I've seen their love grow stronger not weaker year after year. I grew up and as I got older I wondered where you were and who you are.

I've waited for you. 23 years and counting. I've kept myself pure. I'm saving it all for you. When all the girls had boyfriends in high school I had Jesus and he was enough! I'll be honest there's been many lonely nights where it didn't feel like Jesus was enough. Discontentment has too often filled my heart. But I've made it through with the Lords help. In January 2012 I finally surrendered my plastic pearls to the Lord. I got serious about waiting for you. I purposed in my heart that I would wait until YOU came. I remember lying on my bedroom floor crying my eyes out because I didn't want to wait. I didn't think I could but God gave me strength. I surrendered you to the Lord that night. It's been over 3 years since then and here I am still waiting. Many nights I've fell asleep begging God to send you to me. Many nights I've cried and prayed about you and for you. 

Around this time last year I had to face the fact that you may never come. My heart asked me the question, "would I still be faithful to God?" If I'm forever alone will I still keep waiting? I had to surrender that to the Lord. My heart broke as I laid you down on the altar. I'll never forget that night.

But just the belief that you are out there somewhere looking and waiting for me gives me strength to keep waiting for you. The belief that you are in God's perfect will, serving Him, pleasing Him. It does something to me. It gives me courage. Sometimes I wonder how many years you've been waiting. I wonder how many times God has told you no. He's told me no many times. Each time He reminds me, for every no there is a greater yes! One day we will be at the same place at the same time and God will say, "Yes!" I long for that wonderful day. 

I didn't choose waiting. Jesus chose it for me. Nobody likes to wait but these years have taught me so much. While I'm waiting I've learned I can grow.  I can't comprehend all I've learned in this season of waiting. All I've learned about life, myself, Jesus, love..it's been a beautiful journey. He's changing me. He's making me for you. He's growing me. He's making me what you need. I'm so thankful He continually works, molds, and makes. I'm the clay in His amazing hands. I've prayed for a life with God's fingerprints all over it. The hard times are making me look more like Him. I am a masterpiece..one He keeps making better and better! I know He's doing the same for you, that's why I know you will be absolutely amazing when I finally get to know who you are. 

I've also learned that I must let you pursue me. Just as the Holy Spirit pursues us. I can't chase you. I must wait for you to chase me. I pray often that you will have the courage to pursue me when it's that perfect time! Part of me wants to hunt you down but I know if you're the kind of man I'm praying you are that would completely turn you off. Society says "Go after what you want" but Naomi told Ruth "Sit still" (Ruth 3:18).  I've always wanted to marry a preacher. I want God's best and I know there's no higher calling than a man of God. So I know you are a preacher. We get what we settle for...So I will not settle for anything but God's best. You are the best.

 I read a blog yesterday that said God will always give us the best wherever we are! So for today his best is for me to be single. Elisabeth Elliot says singleness is a gift just like marriage is a gift. Let's enjoy the gift God has given us both. Singleness. It's not my favorite gift but it's what is best right now. Please know I pray for you daily. I've prayed to be your prayer warrior; you're cheerleader in the fight. God made me to be your helpmeet and that's what I want to be. I've prayed you'll press on whatever the cost might be. I don't know what you are facing but I'm over here praying for you. I don't even know who you are but I feel like you are facing something big. I can't do anything but I can pray. I pray you'll have a thankful heart. I pray you are humble (that is the MOST attractive quality EVER to me!) I pray you'll never lose the touch of God on your life. Nothing can compare to or replace His touch! 

Please know my heart longs for yours. You my love will be worth the wait! Don't you ever give up! Look up. Stay focused on Jesus. He's enough no matter what. He's on our side. He's working and bringing us together even now. Trust Him! I love you. I can't wait for the day I get to say those words out loud to you! 

With love,

Your future wife 

Be a doer, not just a hearer

Matthew 7:24-25

Therefore whosoever heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them, I will liken him unto a wise man, which built his house upon a rock: And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell not: for it was founded upon a rock.

I hear a lot of things..."clean your room." "come here." "Don't do that." "That isn't right" ect. But hearing will do me no good if I don't listen and obey. The wise man isn't wise because he hears, he's wise because he listens. We're suppose to be doers of the Word and not hearers only. To stand our house must be built upon the rock! That firm foundation doesn't just come through us sitting in church every week hearing the message, or through us reading our Bible everyday...the firm foundation comes through obedience to what he hear. I'm sometimes guilty to read my bible and keep doing exactly what I was before. That's not wise. If we're not careful the storm that's on its way will hit us out of nowhere and leave us broken and foolish. The sand is nice but it's not strong and it goes whatever way the water directs it. We are suppose to be unmoveable! The decision to do right is made long before the world ever asks you the question...like Daniel--> he purposed in his heart that he wouldn't defile himself long before he ever stood before the king. We can only stand if we're standing on the rock. The storm is coming; will your house stand?

Living Water

John 4:13-14

Jesus answered and said unto her, Whosoever drinketh of this water shall thirst again: But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life.

I heard on the radio that someone got ahold of the pope's used water cup..this person took the cup, drunk from it and also let others take a drink as well. I'm amazed at how people are literally worshipping the pope. A wicked man who is on his way to Hell just like all who follow him! Those who drink of his cup will thirst for all eternity while burning in Hell if they don't come to Jesus. But I just wanna take a second and thank God I've been to Jesus and 6 years ago as a lost 16 year old girl He told me about some water that could forever change me...living water from a well that won't run dry. It's been 6 years since I took my first drink and I'm still satisfied! My hope's not in the lost pope, my hope is in Jesus Christ the sinless, precious Savior who WILLINGLY SHED HIS BLOOD for me and you! What has the pope done for anyone?? Not a thing! What has Jesus done for this world?? Everything. He gave His ALL. The Pope is NOT worthy of any praise but Jesus sure is! Don't forget to praise him today! And if you've never had a drink He has enough in the well for you too. Take a sip and be forever changed ❤️

Little David's Sanctification

1 Samuel 16:5,11,12

And he said, Peaceably: I am come to sacrifice unto the Lord: sanctify yourselves, and come with me to the sacrifice. And he sanctified Jesse and his sons, and called them to the sacrifice.

And Samuel said unto Jesse, Are here all thy children? And he said, There remaineth yet the youngest, and, behold, he keepeth the sheep. And Samuel said unto Jesse, Send and fetch him: for we will not sit down till he come hither. And he sent, and brought him in. Now he was ruddy, and withal of a beautiful countenance, and goodly to look to. And the Lord said, Arise, anoint him: for this is he.

Jesse and his sons had to be sanctified before Samuel could do the sacrifice and anoint the new king. That shows us they weren't ready, clean or usable. They had to get some things right before God. David wasn't there. He was out there in the field being faithful, caring for the sheep. He was the youngest, probably the smallest, and had a job that left him alone out in the field. God knew David was the one he wanted. He told Samuel the other sons' hearts were not right, but David's was. He didn't have to go get sanctified when He got called by Samuel. He was already sanctified!! That word sanctified means: Made holy, consecrated, set apart for sacred services. Consecrated means: devoted or dedicated to the service and worship of God.  

God didn't have to clean him up before anointing him.  In order for God to use someone they must be usable! I heard a preacher say a few weeks ago, "don't pray for God to use you, pray that you'll be usable." David was usable, ready, willing, humble, faithful in the small, loved the Lord even when no one else was looking. He was real. God won't use the fake, the dirty, those who won't sanctify themselves. Sanctify yourself NOW so when He is looking to use someone you'll be ready. "He doesn't call you to get faithful, he calls you because you already are faithful!" Stay devoted! Stay dedicated! Even if you think no one is watching or if you feel like it doesn't really matter! It so matters. Keep watching the sheep! Keep being faithful in your field! Don't miss the call because of the dirt in your life! You can't be a living sacrifice without first being sanctified. 

Be strong and of good courage and DO it..

1 Chronicles 28:20

And David said to Solomon his son, Be strong and of good courage, and do it: fear not, nor be dismayed: for the Lord God, even my God, will be with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee, until thou hast finished all the work for the service of the house of the Lord.

Philippians 4:9,13

Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you. I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.  

I read that phrase, "Be strong and of a good courage, and do it" one day last week and I'm still thinking about it. The Bible tells us many things we are to DO. We should be DOING, not just sitting on the pew or believing the lie that someone else will DO whatever God has put on your heart to DO. There's been many times He has told me to give a track and I've thought to myself...someone else will do it. But what if no one else has or ever will. What if He is telling me to DO because no one else will! We have to DO our part so he can DO His! I want to DO His will, but I get scared and often I let my fears drive me from doing it; whatever IT might be. I was reading in Philippians and verse 9 helped me! We are to DO what we know to do, and if we do we will have peace in our hearts. Let His strength do the work. 1 Thessalonians 5:24 says, Faithful is he that calleth you, who also will do it. Whatever he asks us to do He will give us the strength to do it! What is he telling you to do? Time is running out. Be a DOer of the word!